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JulWriSo...ambling on...

Life is long flowing river...you know a river is never static, it is always dynamic. A single grain of sand can alter the course of a river. Think about that for a minute a single grain of sand can change what happens in the "mighty Mississippi." It is a humbling thought isn't it. The reason I mention this is because many think that small actions have no consequence in their lives or in the lives of others, either good or bad, but light a butterfly's wings from across the planet everything we do creates a sequence of events that forever alter the path of life for someone. It is truly a humbling thought in my opinion and demonstrates that we need to consider our actions carefully from holding the door for someone at the store to signing up for the bone marrow registry and beyond. Everything matters, every domino affects the next domino and the slightest breeze can bring down a house of cards, for that is all we are truly living in...an artificial construct that may seem impermeable but really we all live upon the sand with the tide coming in and then going out transforming our lives forever.

Sometimes we never stop to consider our actions. I know of someone in their 50s who it appears has a serious problem with alcohol. I don't know why and I am certainly not judging(although the reasons why could be the basis for another blog post) but because of heavy drinking this person recently had a serious fall. They survived but have been in the hospital in critical condition due to the fall. The person in question was in need of serious surgery due to their injuries but because of their having DTs the surgery had to wait until they were safely detoxed to reduce the already complicated nature of the needed surgery. I believe that it was a week maybe more before the surgery could be done. At least 48 hours after the surgery the patient still had not regained consciousness. I don't know that status as I write this I haven't seen an update in about 24 hours. I keep praying for the patient and their family. The brain and spinal cord injuries had to have been complicated by the fact this person was going through DTs. It may end up costing the patient their life or quality of life. It pains me to think of this. Would the person in question have made more of an effort to stop drinking if they had seen this event coming? Could it(the accident) have even been prevented? Would sobriety even be possible?

I know that there are those who think that any addiction can be stopped and that includes some who have overcome serious addictive behavior but really I don't believe that everyone can halt each and every addiction. It has been noted in AA meetings that as the members discuss sobriety they are often consuming multiple cups of coffee, often with lots of sugar and/or smoking heavily. (As smokers have become even greater social pariahs than alcoholics the number of smokers in AA has fallen. Is it because AA members have beaten the addiction of nicotine or is it because of the attitudes of other AA members that few smokers are going to AA thus opting to continue drinking? I doubt that there are any studies on the subject but then maybe there are.) Going back to my point, addictions are tough to conquer and sometimes just when you think you have them beat they can come back and bite you in the butt, sometimes in a different form. It is maddening.

Because of my perspective on this subject I do not know if the patient above was ever capable of letting go of alcohol even if they had tried. I also know that many with addictions don't even try to break them because they fear failure more than they do the consequences of the addictive behavior.

A single grain of sand can alter the course of a raging river. A thoughtless act can change one's life. We are not immune. We should not be afraid to live but we should be aware of how we affect the world around us.



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Aug. 1st, 2013 06:48 pm (UTC)
I do have to wonder whether many addictions can be stopped. It's not simply because of my friend who died. When I was barely out of my teens, I was also acquainted with a man who died when shooting up cocaine. He was a dealer, a friend of my boyfriend's family. I remember the only time I spent with him we were walking through a grocery store, and he used what I thought were nose drops, which of course weren't nose drops at all. He thought he was too smart to get caught and believed he was having one over on everyone else, but tripped himself up instead.

I also can remember quitting smoking and it was hellaciously difficult. It took me several tries over nine months and I still had to sequester myself at home. If I'd hit the store within a week of that time I finally stopped, I wouldn't have quit at all.

So I know where you're coming from. The daughter thinks I'm a "normie," but I have a feeling that addiction can happen to anyone. It could very well have been me.
Aug. 1st, 2013 09:33 pm (UTC)
I think that almost everyone has the potential for an addiction of some kind or another. Those who escape for the most part just haven't tasted the "poison" that will grab them. I have seen psychological addictions that are even more powerful than physical addictions. I think it is the psychological part that really holds us prisoner.

I am glad that you were able to quit smoking. That one is a real devil to deal with. I have been "clean" since June 2000. I didn't ever think I'd be able to quit. I was glad when I finally did.
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